So, had a nice day with Farmer yesterday.
Took a couple of horses out to round up some cattle at the feedlot. Elmo did OK. I started to get frustrated with him (and him with me, I'm sure) but he did finish nicely for me. We had a minor melt-down, but he came back off the ledge... unlike last time. So that was good.
Afterwards I helped Farmer run the heffers through the shutes to give them shots. I was having one of my "crazy" days yesterday, so I was getting a little more frustrated than the situation warrented (I also blame Verizon for this because I am having issues with my bill that they refuse to fix... but that is another story). And sometimes I just want to know what I'm supposed to be doing or what the plan of attack is. Unfortunately, Farmer and I are a lot alike... we both are the type of people that just take charge and do things without really having a plan, per se... but I'm way out of my element here and playing catch-up all the time. And, as you know, his communication skills sometimes don't help. But all in all got the job done and had fun doing it.
But we had a moment of clarification yesterday regarding his comment about me going to carve pumpkins by myself. He meant it not to be mean but to be helpful (I think... maybe I didn't understand it correctly). I have said in the past that riding is a key to my happiness and sanity. He knows this and tried to encourage it by telling me to do it by myself. I guess the pumpkin comment fell into the same category for him. What he doesn't realize and I'm not sure I explained very well, is that there is a difference between me riding (something I really need to do) and carving a pumpkin (something that I thought might be kind of fun).
Also, he bought a new frame for the bedroom I'm in now (which was great... freed up a lot more room in there). While he was putting it together I kept trying to help (or actually just take charge) and he kept getting the funniest look on his face. Finally I said that I usually had to do these things myself because ex-hub was not too keen on these things. I think it finally dawned on him where I'm coming from on that point.
Anyway... it was a nice day. I enjoyed myself. 'Nough said...
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