Life's A Beach: Living life imperfectly (and a wildlife safari)...

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Living life imperfectly (and a wildlife safari)...

Yesterday I kind of dropped a bombshell. Well, OK. Not kinda. I did. There were a select few who knew the truth of everything as it was happening real time, but mostly I just kind of kept stuff to myself.

*I'm allowed to do that... right?*

My announcement about Rebel had quite a few people commenting (publicly and privately) about what their feelings were on the subject. And it has run the gamut. Some were very happy that he finally came around. Some were concerned for my well being. And some really did call me an idiot...

*I was kidding when I made that comment yesterday... I guess sarcasm doesn't translate to the written word well*

So, let me just clear this up for everyone. I am not trying to live the perfect life. I am trying to actually just live my life. That includes mistakes, and wrong turns and imperfections. For so long I have tried to over-think everything as I go... calculating and trying to manage every outcome. This is NO WAY to live, people. Trust me on that one.

Is giving it another shot with Rebel the right thing to do? I have NO idea. And neither do you. No one knows what the future holds. He may hurt me. I may hurt him. We may break up in 2 months or live the rest of our lives together in perfect harmony (that sounds like a song, doesn't it?). But I'm tired of trying to control and calculate every outcome. For better or for worse, I am living my life rather than trying to control it. Also, if this time around things don't work out between Rebel and I, at least the question of "what if?" won't be rolling around in my head. I'll have the answer to that question...

So, who wants to see safari pictures? Because they are kinda awesome...

Some antelope lookin' thing...