Monday, February 6, 2012

A sobering thought...

My goal the last few days has been to spend as little time alone as possible. In pursuit of that goal, Friday night I went out with Jewel, Hutch, Goldie, HillBill and Bow. They were all commiserating with me about how much it sucks that Rebel and I are no longer together. But they were also trying to make me realize that it's time to wrap up the pity party. To that end, one of them offered this gem of advise:

Nothing lasts forever...

I know they were talking about the shitty way I feel. But think about it. It's true. Nothing does last forever. We are in a constant state of change. Forever moving through this life (whether we want to or not).

Maybe it's a good thing that I'm just kind of over it right now. Because that realization would just be more sadness if I were in a better frame of mind. I used to love to think about finding the one that would love me forever (and I, him). I'm not saying that you can't find something that will last a lifetime (and maybe beyond)... but it's not going to be the same thing throughout your life (or theirs). It will change. But like my sister says... you either grow together or you grow apart. Either way though, you're growing.

It's just the way it is...

OK... enough of that. I can't deal with any more depressing thoughts today. Instead I will talk about my weekend.

On Friday night, I got together with the girls. That was great. On Saturday, I spent the morning with Bow and Jewel getting hay. I went and got the first load. We dropped part of it off at Jewel's new place. And then Bow and I went and dropped the rest of the first load at my house. I then went to pick up the second load. It ended up staying on the truck and because it was such a nice day, PT came over and we took the horses out for a ride. Both Jag and Flash had a blast. Jag is really starting to get a crush on Flash... it's kinda cute.

After a good ride, I went to PT's to sample some Scotch. It's amazing how much different they all are depending on where they were made, how long they aged, what type of barrel or cask they were in. After that, it was off to the sushi place to eat a rude amount of rolls.

On Sunday morning, I unloaded the last of the hay (by myself... *sigh*) and then it was off to play the Fazio course with PT. We were both amazed at what an amazing course it was. On the 8th hole there is even this very cool lava tube that goes back about a 1/2 of a mile. It was crazy...

The lava tube...

Too bad we didn't have a flashlight. It would have been fun to explore...

Checking it out...

PT on the green above the lava tube...

We had a great time. And I actually played really well, too. Which is amazing because I think I played once last year and this is the first time I've been out this year. I can't hit the ball very far, but I do hit it straight...

Getting a good hit off the tee...

A sample of what the course was like. Yes, that is a giant sand trap...

We got off the course at about halftime for the Super Bowl. We decided to hang out at the bar and finish out the game. And it was a good game. I'm glad I didn't blow it off completely...

So, even though I'm still struggling I'm glad I was so busy. I have good friends.

Also, I have a little bonus treat for you. As promised, some pictures from our show last weekend. I think for the most part we don't look too bad. And we both had fun...

Flash and I lining up...

Hutch and Anna following Flash and I...

Hutch and Anna...

For some reason Flash looks really downhill here...

Flash and Anna being good little ponies...

2 comments:

  1. That is a sobering thought... and one that scares me deeply.

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  2. It scares me too. I like the idea of finding "the one". A silly notion, perhaps, but one that I've held on to long and hard through everything. Now I wonder if I'll ever get that part of myself back? The part that is forever romantically hopeful every time I start a new relationship...

    After this one, I just feel defeated and hopeless.

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