Songs...

I think I have found the song that really says it all right now:

The Power of Goodbye by Madonna

Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no

You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to God that it won't be long
Do ya wanna go higher?

There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye

Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress

There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye

Learn to say good-bye
I yearn to say good-bye

For now, that about says it all. I had a weird day today... but that post will have to wait. I'm too emotionally fried to type it all out tonight. Suffice it to say that after a fairly decent night's sleep what once was numb is now fresh again.

So not fair...